SURGERY #2 HAS ARRIVED

So this Friday is the BIG day. I know this will be my last surgery and I will be walking like a pro by summer time BUT I am still scared as hell. Even though I know what to expect I am still scared. The thought of entering that cold , bright OR with 15 people in scrubs, freaks me out. I am not going to lie I was in pain after my first surgery but the pain part doesn;t scare me, it is the major anxiety attacks and hallucinations I had after. The Dr said it was from after effects of anesthesia or from a feeling of being trapped sinced I could barely move. Whatever it is the worst feelings in the world. I am not looking forward to being woken up all night to get my temp taken. AHHHHHHH WHY ME????? This tumor is so friggin annoying and the fact that it is so unpredictable pisses me off! I haven't gotten a decent nights rest in a week I am totally stressing out but I need to just chill and work on my speedy recovery. Soon as I feel up to it I will be back with an update.